31 Days

I have a mere 31 days until I turn 31, and I have to say that so far 30 has been a pretty damn amazing year. I have travelled half way around the world--twice. I bought a house, and a combination of other very important things. However, the thing I am the most excited about is cutting the Albatross loose from my neck and shoeing my Achilles Heel. These are two things that have kept me from my future for a VERY long time. They are the two things that have held me back from what I have wanted my whole life. I am beyond excited to say that the things I envisioned coming to me when I let these things go are in fact coming to me. I cannot wait to see what's in store for the next 31 days :)

Amputation

The wounds are deep. The flesh is raw. Words are the placebo. Where's the Vicodin?

The feelings are trapped. Hatred. Fear. Peace. Anger. Relief. Knowledge. Jealousy.

Tears are the only thing that escape to acknowledge. Hatred. Fear. Peace. Anger. Relief. Knowledge. Jealousy.

The nerves are numb. Even with them gone, the feeling will still exist. Every once in a while you will reach for it. It will not be there.

The pain is a phantom. You know you were right. It had to go. It has always been this way. What was dead was holding you back.

Untrap. Hatred. Fear. Peace. Anger. Relief. Knowledge. Jealousy.